Because I really should be doing something else...

I really should be doing homework. But as usual when I have an assignment that calls for me to use the internet I get easily distracted. So here I am working on a post...
Because I like makeup so much and I like their products I decided to become a Mary Kay Independent Beauty Consultant. I also thought about the extra money I can make and the discount I would get. I thought it would be easy because I really do love the products and the pink and white bottles some of the products come in. Well it turns out it's not as easy as I thought. The main reason is because I am very shy and I don't like rejection(who does?). When I started I was so excited because I was going to be sharing with other people products I really love. I wanted to share these products with my family, friends and co-workers. Well most of them were not interested. I mean they gave me every reason under the sun as to why they did not want to try out the products. Most of them have shot me down so now I am wondering how can approach a perfect stranger about MK. I have got product I need to sell!
MK has a new line of mineral products that I finally tried on for the first time Friday. As I said earlier I am shy and because of my shyness I decided I was not going to post a picture of myself on my blog. However, I had a thought...when I try new makeup I always do before and after pictures. Maybe I will step outside of my box and post them on my blog. This may be the therapy, if you will, that I could use to help me work on breaking out of my shyness...

Before:
After: I am wearing MK Bronze 1 creme to powder foundation; new MK Mineral eye color in Honey Spice, Chocolate Kiss, and Navy Blue; new MK Mineral cheek color in Golden Cooper; MK Berry Kiss lipstick topped off with MK Beach Bronze lipgloss

Getting ready...

Early today I went out to the local Wal-Mart store. I have not been out in a while because I am recovering from having major surgery earlier this month. So I guess that is why I have so much time to self reflect. Anyway I went out to Wally World with my mother to help her pick out a paint color for her den. I had the hardest time finding something decent to wear. The cut for my surgery was in the mid-section. So today I just put on what was comfortable. I did not like what I had on but I don't want to be too hard on myself because I am recovering from surgery. But I feel like I am just making excuses. So in order to make myself feel better about myself I said I need a plan. This got me to thinking about an essay I wrote for one of my classes...

Change Is Inevitable



It has been six years since I have attended school. I was a student at Augusta State University and that was my second attempt at obtaining my degree. But I found what I thought was a good job with great benefits and again put my academics on hold. During that six year span I got married and had two children. Not necessarily in that order but at any rate that is what I have done so far. I live and work for my children and husband always putting them first. Last December I turned thirty-five and I am one of those women who have let her self go. So when I first read the topic for this essay I chuckled because I have been telling everyone mother, sister, friends and co-workers that I plan to be Fabulous At Forty.
I don’t really think that it will take me five years to become fabulous because I am not that bad off but I do need some work and change can be made for the better or made for the worse. I want better! So for me to become Fabulous At Forty I plan to drop some pounds, obtain my degree and have a new car.
In May I started dieting. I am working with Dr. Ian Smith, a famous celebrity doctor by way of his book<>. Easiest diet I have ever been on. The great thing about his book is that he teaches you how to eat better and not really feel like you are on a diet. I have lost a total of fourteen pounds so far. My goal is to lose a total of thirty-six pounds.
Eating right is the easiest part, the exercise part is my biggest struggle but I am working on that. I want to have good eating and exercise habits at forty .I am well on my way to being Fabulous At Forty.
The next change is the job that I took instead of finishing school six years ago. I currently work for the Clerk of Superior Court and I absolutely hate it and I refuse to be there doing data entry when I turn forty. If I had it my way I would quit now. But my husband says no. He says maybe after he gets promoted to Co-manager I can quit my job. He is currently an Assistant Manager at Wal-Mart. That is the main reason I decided to return to school. When he does get promoted we may have to move. Since he said maybe and if we relocate and I have to work. I don’t want to find myself at yet another dead end job and no degree. I would like to be an Assistant Principal. During my five year plan I will obtain my degree to teach and while teaching work on obtaining my specialist in leadership. Oh yes, how fabulous I will be at forty!
Now about that car, I drive a 1993 Nissan Altima with 206,900 miles and it leaks a quart of oil every other day. Whenever I get out of my car I smell like fuel exhaust and strawberry air freshener. Who could be fabulous driving that? Change is good!

Well a lot has changed since I wrote that essay. My husband got that promotion, I am two classes away from graduation and I did get that new car! However, I am still working and have fallen back into that rut and beginning again to let myself go. Well I have three years before I turn forty. I rather reach forty feeling fabulous instead of in this rut that I am in... so I better get ready and design my plan of action.

Get it together girl!

It is 3:30 in the am. I can't sleep. I like checking out the fashion blogs. Well I got to thinking I love it! I want to dress like them. Well not exactly like them. But I want that pulled together polished look they possess. However I just don't spend time on fixing myself up. I don't know if it is because I don't have time. I have two daughters who take up a lot of my time. Not to mention I work full time and go to school. My plate is quite full. But hey that's no different from any other woman who has a life,doing whatever it is they like or have to do right? Well maybe it is because I am not organized. I buy things and forget where I put them. Sometimes not even taking the items out of the bag. Or could it be I am just plain lazy. By the time I get the girls ready I don't care what I look like. I just throw on what looks clean and on my way to work on Wednesday wonder oh man didn't I wear this same outfit on Monday?